Someone come take me away from here.

I have no confidence and any I had has been shattered.

Day Two.

All I keep doing is wasting time. I have two days left of the holidays to do my work and all I want to do is eat, sleep and do nothing.. I feel literally unable to do anything else I can't concentrate for more then ten minutes and as soon as I think of college I just c r y. I really really really don't want to do these exams because I know I'll fail but I don't even have the motivation to try a little bit, I just want to curl up in a ball and cry some more, I've just had enough. Every angle something is wrong or is aggravating me. It feels like nothing can make any of the pain stop. ARGH :(

Day One.

So it's January 1st 2012. So what will this year hold? Friendship and love? Breakups and hurt? Who knows.. But I believe 2012 is not the END. I went into this year with my family because well that's all I had. 2011 was a BIG year and a lot changed. Friendships grew strong and then b r o k e.. People made promises which soon b r o k e.. how can you begin to trust another human being if all they say is lies? I'll always be here even when no-one else is? Um.. I don't think you were.

But 2011 did hold some good times.. Louise's 22nd, Georgia's 16th, France, London, longest summer, finish school, Georgie's 16th, Chloe's 16th, T4, Professor Green in Bristol, theater trips, performing, Drives with Luke and Tessa, Shopping with MY money, Majorca, The birth of my little niece, Parties, A silly crush, Come dine with me, sleepovers, Natalies 21st, Titi came down, students, cans and more cans of monster! COOKIES.. So how can I be complaining after all of that! I suppose it did hold some good times. Good bye 2011. Hello 2012. So what are my new years resolutions.. Be good to my teeth! Don't cry, be strong. Stand on my own two feet, just be ME. DO A WHOLE LOT MORE THIS YEAR! AND fuckin' conquer my phobia so I can laugh all over it by the end of the year.