Change

A few months ago getting away from here was all I wanted to do, going to University didn't seem like too much of a change, I didn't think it would be like this. I thought it would be a new start and everything here seemed a bit of a mess anyway so getting away would be for the best. But now suddenly everything has changed. Things have suddenly turned around, as you can tell I haven't been writing blog after blog about how I feel unhappy. No i'm not happy every minute of the day, but who is? I'm just glad, I've got what i've got. I have a family who I love - although at times we don't always see eye to eye and we may scream and shout, we have a relationship which I couldn't change for the world. Not everyone can call their dad a fucking twat and get called slut in return. The family banter makes my family, my family. We started off quite small, just me, my parents, my sisters and my nan and grandma. I now have practically two brother-in-laws, a 1 year old niece and a boyfriend of my own. And I love that. I also have an AMAZING best-friend who literally is like my life support, her mum & step dad are like my second parents and her house is my second home. We may never talk about all the emotional stuff but she will always be the one to make me smile and laugh and the one that truly cares! We've been friends for practically 11 years and I can't imagine living more than 5 minutes away from her. But by the end of this year 5 minutes will be more like 4 hours. I know it won't change our friendship and she'll always be my best-friend but it doesn't make it any easier! So hopefully she'll come visit me often when she's rolling in the money. But it doesn't stop there I don't have just one amazing best-friend. I also have my two other beautiful girls, who are always there for me! Whether it's sending crazy pictures/videos to one another or getting cushty with some cake and good tv! These girls are also my rocks. It's these people that i'll miss. It's these people that make this step that little bit scarier. I want the next chapter of my life to begin, but I don't want to leave this one behind. It feels like the exciting part has only just started. Although in my eyes University may be a new chapter but a new chapter which involves some people from the previous! It's just scary knowing that if all goes well in less than four months i'll be living in the big city of London! A dream which I thought wouldn't ever come true. It's thoughts like these which make me realise how precious the moments you have with people truly are, like my birthday on Thursday! Literally going to make the most out of every second! Spending it with all the people I love and care about. Aw i'm such a soppy twat. So my motto for everyone is just to appreciate what you've got because you'll only regret that you didn't when it's gone! So I spent time looking for a cute meaningful picture & ended up with this ahahaah