arghhhhh.

hurting on the inside, keeping it all locked in, pretending it doesn't bother you, or it doesn't matter but then something just pushes you & it all comes out. the tears come running, you start to shake and all you wanna do is curl up and never move. why do people lie, why do they say they're always there, why do they say they care about you when really they dont give a fuck. i just want to forget you, but i can't, its because no matter how little i mean to you, it doesnt matter cause your always gonna mean something to me if i like it or not, you gained my friendship you gained my trust, you've left me feeling stupid, why did i ever let you in? and as for you, you've lied, you've hurt me so bad, it doesnt feel like its gonna go away, but i couldnt let you go, cause i knew i would regret it, but now i am left so unsure on what to do, i think i am just gonna try stay away, because all i seem to do is cause you or i hurt.

someone once told me your in life to live it and thats what your doing, dont worry about anyone else because you havnt done anything wrong. so i'm gonna try listen to her, cause i am fed up of this feeeling.

thank you to my best friends they mean everything to me, always being there through thick & thin, i love you guys <3