not to sure.

another random i found.

do you ever get that feeling when you just can't explain anything because you just dont no. like you feel down, but you dont no why? or you feel like you should be annoyed with someone but you cant quite explain what they did to make you feel like it. do you ever wish you just had the guts to walk up to someone and say do you actually care about me or are you just gonna stand there and act as you couldnt care less, or walk away from me and just leave me. i dont really ever no why i dont? maybe its because i just dont want the tears or having to handle with the grief that comes with it, it never really seems worth it.

but the thing is with out saying anything i still get the tears and stress but it just seems the easy way out & then when you have a fat drama performance coming up in two weeks & you have 47 lines to remember & then having to retake my maths, we did it all early for nothing. then i have to think about my science which is coming up, then i obviously have friend & girl friend commitments & then my favourite sport netball & all my other school subjects, sometimes it all gets to much, but i wouldnt ever give up on any of it because they all mean so much to me. just feels some people just want to make things harder.

to not make sence i do best, to feel lost and pretend i'm all ok i do.