Positivity

Some people see the glass half full, others see the glass half empty. Some people say we're half way there, others say we still have half way to go. Optimistic Vs pessimistic; two very different approaches to every day life. It's a rare but magnificent talent to see the good in all, to always see that bright side of life. I, myself find this hard. I'm quite a negative person at times or where talking about myself is involved. I find it easier to say my ten flaws instead of my five attributes. But then again don't we all? Par the small few who have been up their own bottom since birth and have never seen day light in their whole small minded lives. But it's better to have the best of both. No one likes someone who is so over confident that they can't even fit through a door but then no one likes someone who just hides in the shadows and shows no confidence, no personality.

But to find confidence you need people to believe in you, you need people to have faith in you, maybe even admire you a little. My driving instructor is always banging on at me to have a little more confidence in my own decisions, a little more confidence in my own ability. Anyway to get to the point.. I took my theory today at 3. I woke up at 9 and revised from that point onwards passing 47/50 45/50 but still nervous because in the pit of my stomach I still had doubt, I still had doubt in myself that I'd fail and I suppose I lived up to it. One shitty question wrong was the thing between me passing and failing, between 31 pound and 62 pound, between passing my driving test sooner and having to wait. I would have done anything today to just have changed that one question to make the difference, but it was too late. Gutting was not the word to express how I felt. Like my mum and sister said I could have walked in again a hour later, had different questions and pass with flying colours. Today wasn't my day. I actually felt a little embarrassed and ashamed when I walked out the doors knowing i'd failed. But I think now why should I make myself feel like that, why did I deserve to feel embarrassed and ashamed. The real answer is I didn't. At the end of the day I failed and be it all of one mark there wasn't a lot I could do but walk out and try again next time. So as the saying goes.. If at first you don't succeed, try, try again. So here is to next time, more faith and more confidence. Good night. xox