The end of another year

It's coming closer to the end of yet another year. It's 21 days until Christmas and 27 until new years. I want to have a party so badly. With all the drinking games, all the people I care about, fireworks, drink, great food and even more importantly great music! I really want to have an amazing night. But that won't happen. Sorry for sounding all pessimistic but sometimes we all have to accept the reality. It never happens, so the chances of it happening now are less so. But maybe it could happen.. asdfgh I dunno. I'll think about it. Sitting in my room and not really knowing what to do with myself, I don't want to be down stairs because either it's shit tv or my dad complaining about how stressed he is, which is never fun, I may not be 6 anymore but that shit can still effect you, even more so now. So my other option which the one I normally go for is sitting in my room either attempting coursework, listening to music, watching endless youtube videos or tv. But i'm feeling so fed up with everything! Stupid car is being shit and dying on me, as well as my phone & my ipod. Then there's christmas & saving up for Uni, just screwed really. Wish I had a money tree then shit would be okay. ohhhh and another lonely christmas, yaaaay me. asdfgh errggggh fuck it all. moan moan moan. rant rant rant. feel better now! noooot.