welll.. hmm.

i'm sorry for another one of these depressing crappy little blogs but tbh this is like one thing that always helps me, just writing it all down. well i ain't gonna be all sad anymore cause look where its got me, no where. i let it take over me, just walk all over me. And now it's got to my friends to, i don't no what it is, it's almost like a illness, it just puts you in these seriously impossibly shit moods, where you just want to scream, cry, punch and shout, when you don't care what your actually doing, whether it hurts you or the people around you and its driving me crazy. its stupid, its perfetic and i have had enough. i was talking to my friend the other day and just by me being able to trust her and talk to her helped me out LOADS. i hope i havnt put too much pressure on her cause i understand its alot to take on board. but it was amazing how i could just talk to her, and no it hasnt taken away the problem completely but it's weighed it out abit. anyway the reason why i wanted to write a blog;

i have simply had enough of fighting for this, to be knocked down. i can't do anything to make it better, cause anything i do, do makes it worse. but i just want it to go away, i under stand things change and people move on, and friends come and they go, but i didnt want this person to go, but i think i'm just going to let them do what they want, because its hurting me, its hurting me down deep. but i cant say anything to them, because its never gonna get sorted like that, its up to them and them alone. but i'm not something thats gonna be there when you want & go away when you have got sick of me, i'm just not.

exams.. ha well they suck really dont they. i have a crap science teacher, all i want is my B so i caaan do the course i want to in collegee but no its to hard to teach me. MERR. graphics i am abit worried about but at the end of the day its not the end of the world and tbh at least i get all these opportunities, so i am gonna take it all in my stride & just do my best:)

smileee laughhhh do what you want & say how you feel else your not gonna get what you want out of life.
tiss alllllllllllllllllll. loveee it.