time

tick tick tick..



every second, every minute, every hour each day a part of my life passes.

each day a step on the path of my life. some days i feel like i've got lost walked into the dark woods alone. not knowing where i am going then suddenly a light will shine & i will see the path again in which i follow. these are the times of which i am happy and smileing the dark times are when i am sad and feel alone. in life you can be surrounded with people who say they love & care for you but still can feel alone.

when i'm alone i will see all the faults in my self. all the things that could be better some could say i am very pestimistic. i see the glass half empty not half full. i am a senstive person, so if something that someones says gets to me you'll know about it. i will most likely go quiet & say i'm fine but really quite upset & a lot of people notice this as most of the time i am a loud person who just doesn't shut up.

so i find it hard loosing people, who doesnt? but why does it always seem to sit on my mind.. why does it constantly upset me, people come in & out of your life everyday so why do i hold on to it so hard. why do i let my self get so deep. so i get it in to my head you dont care? well i guess you havnt for a while, have you?:/ & it hurts, so bad.

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so i was browsing on facebook as i have nothing better to do & i saw a group i liked it. then i thought wow.. look how many people feel this way. i'm not alone, we're all human & we all feel hurt. but tbh i would just like it to stop, but it won't. just wanna be in my own world & just dream my life away. it seems so easy, so simple. right now the facebook group i looked at says depressed? ear phones in.. volume up, ignore the world. how i feel.



so returning to the title of this blog, basically i have one year left of school and like i said in my last blog i am scared of things which are out of my control & this is just one of those things. i want it to end because theres so much hurt & stress which comes from it but then i dont because theres the laughs the smiles, the people i care about so much. that sometimes i dont think they even realise that with out them i wouldnt be where i am. the time just keeps ticking by & i am loosing myself in it, slowly but surely.

but i wont give up, i just want this pain to stop. the feeling of something missing.

soo thats another blog done another day passed. thank you blogspot for listening to my crap:D