Feelings

Right now all I want to do is cry and it's all because of these fucking messed up feelings. But i'm not crying, my eyes aren't even filled with tears, just letting it go over my head because I know that's best, not letting it hit the surface. But now I have to make a decision and it's not one I want to make but I don't think there is really any other option. Need to just keep my head up, things will improve and these feelings can change. asdfghjkl. I just don't know!! Would be lush if I could just move away to some sunshine and not have to look back.