Monday, 30 July 2012
Setting out to fail.
Literally feel like i'm a useless pointless human being and everything I try and do will only result in failure. I do not look forward to the 16th August only to find out the last year of my life has been wasted. So I thought i'd concentrate on something else; learning to drive. Once again I was wrong; all this did was crush any confidence I have in my self. Only to add the one person I thought was interested in me this year only went & fucked his ex then walked all over her like she was nothing. So where in life am I succeeding? Because right now the only thing that comes to mind is no where. I need some inspiration, some hope, I need something to be proud of. I need a day where I'm surrounded by happiness, people, beauty, laughter and freedom. So it's my day off tomorrow, can only hope it's a better day. Just wish I could relax and smile. asdfghj. Music up, headphones, fuck everything.
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Oh shh. You are not a failure one bit! You are an amazing person. To me, and to so many other people. Don't forget that. You need to stop putting yourself down. No body is perfect and everyone makes mistakes. You worked as hard as you possibly could for you exams and driving takes time! You can't expect to get it just like that! And as for the rat himself, he's a boy Shan. A pathetic waste of space who you won't even remember in few years when you're happy! Put things into perspective, they're not THAT bad! You can be proud of the fact that you try your best and sometimes peoples best may not be enough but that's ok because at least you did try! You can be proud of the fact you are an amazing best friend, sister, daughter, auntie. I love you, I'm proud of you. Love your bestest friend forever xxxxxxxxxxxx
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