Confidence

Monday 21st May What is it and how the heck do I get my self some!? It's not hard to act 'confident' to pretend you like the way you look or the person you are, it's easy to put on a smile when you're covered up with what I rely on a lot of the time make-up and other beauty products! But why do we waste our time, today I was ill so stayed in.. hair up, no make up and I will say it wasn't the best sight, but I was glad not to waste half an hour applying my make up and straightening my hair which isn't long compared to some people, with their five layers of foundation, two of concealer, couple different powders, a few mascaras and a nice bright pink lip stick. ohhh & don't forget the scouse brow which is suddenly very popular. Sunday 27th May Continued.. So I dislike myself and my body. I think my skin is too pale, my thighs are too wide, my eye brows are like bushes, my nose is too big, my boobs are too small and my bum is too big, I have freckles and moles, my eyes aren't just one colour and my height can get the best of me, I act like a freak and find it hard to take risks which could be life changing, I hold on to the past and cry when no ones looking, I get angry and put myself down for hours on end, listing all these faults one by one until I'm just too tired to think, to stay awake and listen to myself. But anyway this needs to change. I need to stop letting my insecurities run my life, one step at a time, but I will do this. Everyone can hide behind a fake smile but it takes pure strength to smile with nothing to hide.