A week till summer

I cannot not explain the excitement and the relief to know it's only seven days until my summer begins! But where the hell has this year gone? Today I sat reminiscing old memories from this year and it's crazy. This time last year I was preparing for GCSE's but now it's AS exams and the jump in difficulty is unthinkable- that may sound over the top or a little extreme, but college isn't a walk in the park. Yes it has it's perks like; no uniform, late starts, new people, being able to go get a milkshake or a hot drink in your free, the more relaxed relationship you have with your teacher.. but with it's perks it brings shit. Within the first few months you're expected to learn half the criteria for your AS and sit an exam in January which is a shock to the system, especially when you get your results back and you got a U & a E and you have never experienced such grades. In addition comes responsibility, you are practically a adult, how successful you are in college and what you gain from the experience is down to you and you only. No teachers for reassurance, no extensions to your work. The only person who will get it done is YOU. In addition to this you then have work, something not everyone chooses to do, but from personal experience I think it's a great thing to do, meet new people, learn new skills and actually earn some money for yourself,so you don't have to rely on others such as mum or dad. Without working I couldn't afford half of the luxuries I've bought myself; car, docking station, camera, holiday, clothes and more fucking clothes + some shoes! But work isn't easy, it adds stress to exams, customers aren't always nice and your managers don't always like you. But you just have to get on with it, there will be days where work isn't so bad and you might even get yourself a few compliments, be it your nails, hair, personality. Something else to add to this bundle is the social pressure and acceptance, everyone feels the same on that first day, you don't know any fucker and you kind of just wish you never walked into the classroom, but with time it gets better- you settle in and you WILL make friends! My friends from college are very different from my school friends but they're all lovely people who have made this year what it is. Within the subject of social pressure and acceptance you have relationships and social gatherings. The pressure on having sex, or taking drugs and being totally off your face every weekend. But you don't have to follow the crowd, you don't have to take drugs or become the college bicycle. People will accept you for who you are, as long as you make it clear that your loud and proud of the person you are & the decisions you make. So who cares if you've never touched alcohol or haven't fucked the living daylights out of every boy you've met. No one, just be you & work hard, don't expect it all to come so easily. Stay in touch with school friends, the real ones will always stick around. So good night and good luck.

A year a go this June/July haha can't even remember when my prom was!